How do I ask for help?

Yet again, I have been ill… I’ve been working too hard and not looking after myself properly… trying to take over the world and forgetting to get my beauty sleep.  And this time I’ve had an added problem that I haven’t really encountered before… I’ve been alone.

I have spent most of the last two years+ living alone, but I had a significant other at the other end of an online messaging service to pander to my every emotional whim.  And before that, although my marriage may not have been the stuff that happily ever afters are made of, I had been known to get a glass of water with my paracetamol, when I was ill.

These last three days I have been feeling like death and without an other half to lean on, I’ve been groping around in the dark, not really knowing how to get the support I need.  I’ve been sleeping between sobbing fits, until I was well enough to go downstairs and sit on my little square pouffe (being without any comfy furniture right now) and cry into my latest easy to make and nutritionally empty meal.

My question is a simple one.  “How do I ask for help?” I would have liked someone to keep me company a little bit. I could have done with someone to pick up some painkillers when I ran out and had to suffer with headaches. I really could have done with some decent food to help me recover.  I wasn’t asking for anything out of this world, but the problem was I wasn’t asking! Why wasn’t I asking? I like to think I’d help someone else in a similar situation.

I had one friend who was able to pick up from cryptic messages on facebook that I was somewhat under the weather, but even then I didn’t pursue.  I even told her I didn’t know how to ask for help, but still didn’t actually let her know what I needed.  I would like to thank her though for taking the time to check if I was ok.

I considered putting a call out on facebook, but that felt desperate.  I thought about texting a couple of friends and asking them if they could do one of my three tasks required above, but that felt plain rude. A phone call was out of the question, my voice had completely disappeared!

I did actually text another friend telling them how crap I was feeling and it was completely ignored… I am hoping to receive an apologetic text in the near future about how the phone had been dropped down the loo and they had just got the message or that some tragedy had befallen them that makes my poorliness pale in comparison… I am also not holding my breath.

I am feeling much better now, although my voice has still not returned enough to hold a sensible phone conversation.  For next time, I am now asking from anyone reading this… How do I ask for help?

Jan
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Where have I been for the last three and a half months?

Yeeeeeeee Haaaaaaa!!!

Well, hello there!  It’s been while, and there has been a lot going on, but I am back now to resume my insane blogging, beginning with, Where have I been for the last three and a half months?

Reach out – they are missing you too!

While we are waiting for the new kitty to finish her preparations and launch herself into blogland and beyond, I have another tale to tell in my Creative Friends series. These fascinating friends just keep coming.

Earlier in my blog, I posted an article about a very special life coach who helped me to achieve great things with my life in the last few years. He is an amazing man - with a hat - and I am grateful for my continued connection with him. He is doing marvelous things.

New Kitty on the Horizon

I have spent some time recently thinking about all of the projects I have tucked away in my crazy world of a brain and assigning some priority to it all.  In the process I have discovered a little Kitty that needs some tlc so she can spread her claws and start making good.  I will be working with her over the next few weeks and Vivid Kitty has agreed to give up some of her time to make room for this new sister of hers.

Chick Flick Survival Kit

About a year ago, I spent who knows how many hours cutting out squares of fabric from numerous discarded outfits and then sewing them together, thinking I would never reach the end.  I had a vision of cushions that I wanted to create to decorate the generic settee that came with my rented flat.  Well after lots of tears and foot stamping, including the throwing away of my first completed cushion cover due to a purely childish temper tantrum, I had my three cushions and a lot of left over squares.  These poor little squares were relegated to the bottom of one of my fabric boxes, hope draining from them as the lid closed and they wondered if they’d ever see the light of day again.  Awwww!

My First Tie Top

Just a quick blog to show you all my first item of clothing in a very long time.  It’s not the best picture, but hopefully I’ll have a better one tomorrow night when I wear it to out for a meal with my good friend Catherine.

Next sewing item will be a shirt that I am hoping I will be able wear to work, especially since it’s so bloody warm in the office and I only seem to own jumpers right now.  A nice cool shirt would be very nice to have – especially one that fits.

Well, cheers m’dears,

Jan
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The last 29 hours

It is seven thirty on a beautiful Friday evening and I am sat in the garden at my mum’s house enjoying the warm summer evening while she chats on the phone to my little brother.  I thought this would be a good moment to get typing on my phone with another blog installment.

I had a wonderful evening last night plotting and scheming with my good friend Debby.  After two false starts on Tue and Wed we finally got down to our creative business and I have been left with an amazing sense of excitment about some new projects.  It’s too soon to drop any clues yet, but I’ll be making some announcements here on my blog in the not too distant future. Hopefully you will want to be involved too.

Butterflies and Flowers

I am sat here on Leeds Station waiting for my next train.  I have had a very busy and productive day so far – work, sewing, lunch with wine (hic), shopping - and then I missed my train. What a pain.  Any way, in my new spirit of optomism, I figured I’d spend some time using my new phone to write the next instalment in my blog, ready to upload with pictures when I get home.  So here it is…

Ta Da, Tote with a Zip!

I have had a pretty lousy week last week.  I think it has been my all time low this year.

Work was incredibly tough after a ridiculous breakdown of relationships the week before.  There were teddies being thrown out of cots left, right and centre and I was the one trying to get people to work together.  I managed to keep the project on plan, but it did involve me staying at work 3 hours longer than I would have normally done on a Friday and getting home with a banging headache.

Between Gulps from the Coffee Cup

It’s been quite a while since I last posted.  I’ve had a busy couple of months, and it’s not going to stop for some time.  I had a lovely visit with my fiance in America, although a sad goodbye :(  I’ve taken on more responsibility at work, which has it’s ups and downs :$ I’ve started to work on my fitness regime and have become the one of the founding members of the ‘Girlie Olympics’ – a group of friends sharing the responsibility of organising and the fun of attending different exercise sessions and having a good gossip while they are at it :D